Moved!

Well, I've gotten all the big stuff moved into my new house. It feels so nice to be (almost) done. Now all I have to do with the other place is move my kitchen stuff and clean, clean, clean. (I say that like it's exciting, but it's really not.) I've got the majority of my things moved into my new place, though it still looks messy. All in good time, though.

We're going to head off to a party soon, so I'll say ciao for now, but here's a partial photo of my new digs.

Oy, the heat

Really, must the weather show me so much disdain? All I want is for a lovely spring day with temperatures in the low 80s and instead I get cold and rain for weeks on end before falling into a steady stream of endless heat. I love the summer, really I do, but can't there possible be more than two seasons a year?

My body has really felt off with the seasons lately, though I'm not sure why. Every time I get ready to leave a building, I'm expecting it to be cold enough for me to wear a jacket. Then I walk into a blast of hot air and it takes me a moment to adjust. My brain and body expect one thing, but the world is something completely different.

Not unlike, well, almost everything in my life. I expect one thing, but really it's not that at all. When I was younger, all I wanted was the life of a happy single until I was at least 30. No husband or kids to slow me down. I wanted to jet around the world and be happy with the string of boyfriends I'd leave behind. (Never more than one at a time, though. I do have principles.)

Instead, at the rather young age of 27 all I long for is a home with a good husband and beautiful little children. Don't get me wrong, I still want to travel and see the world while having fun, but my idea of fun has changed slightly since my youth. Sometimes it's just not as much to be alone while seeing the world.

I've been places, seen things, experiences much, but I still don't feel like I belong anywhere. I'm getting closer, I think, and I look forward to this move I'm making. I really like the girls I'll be living with, and we get along so well. But it's still not my home.

That's really what I want. Home. Somewhere to belong. A place that is mine. Not just mine—a place for a family that I am a part of.

So in my mind, as I take each step in my life, it's like I'm walking outside expecting warmth and sunshine and summer, only to find that it's still winter and I'm cold and tired of being alone.

Well, at least the weather outside is nice and warm. I'll enjoy it while there's time. Soon enough the cold and snow will be back. But maybe—just maybe—I need to learn to enjoy whatever season of life I'm in, appreciate it for what it is. No use pining for fall when there's fun to be had in the sun.

That's more than enough philosophizing for one night. For now, adieu.

Will Work for Books

I should really be getting to bed, but I noticed how long it's been since my last post and thought I'd share some updates.

Well, BookExpo was excellent. Bigger than I expected, but not totally overwhelming. I also loaded up on the books. Fifty plus that I carried home, as you can see by the massive amount of books spread out on our hotel beds. Those aren't just mine, though. That was between 4 of us, though it really looks like we're ready to open up a used book store.

So now I'm really on book overload. I've been reading much too much the past few weeks, which also explains my blogging absence. At the moment I'm reading the new Obert Skye book Pillage, which will be out later in July. It's so fun to say that I read a book before it was even released for sale. I also got plenty of autographs, including from Sarah Addison Allen, one of my new favorite authors. Sugar Queen, by the way, was a great read. I wholeheartedly recommend it.

In other news, I found a new place to live for this coming year. Wahoo! I'll be moving in July to a house fairly close by. The other three girls are great, and I really get along well with them. One of my new roomies planted a garden already, so I'm going to contribute my little basil babies, plus tonight I went out and bought some other herbs. We're going to plant them all tomorrow. I'm so excited. (Photos to come.)

So things are picking up now. Everything's good. I'm trying not to stress too much at work, but you know how that is. Plus I stress really easy, which is why I have to pamper myself frequently. Okay. I really need to sleep. This is all coming out gibberish now.